I am not sure what a mid-life crisis looks like, but I can’t
be going through that since I am too young…so I am going to call it a
mini-meltdown. We will call it M&M for short because it doesn’t sound as
crazy and well, I love M&M’s. My
M&M is no reason for concern; I am getting out of bed, showering, taking
care of my kids, going to work, still functioning on all levels…so no need for
concern. Like everything always does, things are changing in my life and I am
just living in my head too much while these changes are happening. It is sort
of funny writing about this mini-meltdown, because it sounds ridiculous, but I
have this blog is to document what is going on in REAL life.
What is the deal with this M&M? I have just noticed that things I was once
passionate about haven’t really been getting me too excited lately. Friendships
are changing. The wrinkles on my forehead are getting deeper. Things that were
normal aren’t anymore. Some people aren’t in my life anymore. My iron is low. This whole “getting healthy” thing is for sure
slower than the slowest thing on earth, because I haven’t totally committed. I
am not going to sit here and feed you with all the excuses that I can think of.
The truth is my commitment has been bare minimum and the excuses have won. I
haven’t worked out. I think about it
sometimes, but thinking about it doesn’t do anything for me. I continue to make small changes every day and
my eating habits have changed drastically, but lack of preparation for “life”
is my major downfall.
Sounds so hilarious when I go and read what I have written.
It makes me think I am having a Zoolander moment!!
I am working through my M&M in my own way and am sure I
will be back to normal in no time…whatever that means. In the meantime, keep
on swimming and carrying on with your life!!!
