Can You See It?

I always think about an English class I had in high school where the teacher said if you wanted to achieve your goals you had to write them down or in this case put them where I could see them.  I have always been too picky when it comes to creating my vision board thinking I couldn’t do it unless I had a really nice cork board and then I would have to find the perfect picture….just procrastinating and NEVER ever getting one completed. Well, until today. I just did it and it is done and it is not perfect and I don’t care. Here it is and I only numbered it so I could explain each picture. Before you read this you may think it is selfish and you are right, it is, but where has it gotten me putting everyone else before myself? I am stuck in this cycle just doing things for others and not myself, never feeling accomplished, and never challenging myself to be better. 

   

1.  I want to wear leggings and actually look cute in them. Lots of people wear them….and shouldn’t, but I think they are cute on certain people. I would also like to wear boots that go over my calves. Always had to find certain ones and pay more to have them fit.  
2.  I don’t necessarily want a neck like a giraffe, but I want a “skinny” neck. No more double chin!
3. When I get dressed or un-dressed I avoid the mirror like the plague and if my husband comes in the room while I am changing I scramble to cover up. Doesn’t make sense since I have had 2 kids with him. 
4. TMI and goes right along with #3. I want to be comfortable with myself and around my husband. I don’t want to hide behind a pair of sweats and an oversized t-shirt.
5. I freaking SNORE!! It started when I was pregnant and was sure that it was because my boobs were suffocating me in my sleep, but it never went away after I had my baby. Convinced it is a weight thing and my boobs are still suffocating me! I am so self-conscious about it and I won’t go anywhere that people may be affected by it. 
6. I want to wear shorts! I haven’t worn shorts in years and would love to wear them comfortably without scaring away little children and having my thighs rub together so much that I have major chaffing. I don’t even want to wear the ones where my hoo-ha hangs out, just above the knee shorts….not too much to ask.
7. I want to enjoy hiking, camping, or any outdoor activity really. Being out-of-shape really makes me feel un-comfortable and I miss out on simple things.
8.  I would like wear and own a swimsuit. Again, no need for me to wear a bikini, just a simple one piece. 
9. I want to be strong both physically and mentally. The end.
10. Maternity underwear. Yep, I still got them and I still wear them and my son turned 1 in February. I understand that they are not one bit attractive, but dammit they are so comfortable! I know they gotta go...
11. The “little black dress” I want to own one and wear it out and get a compliment for how nice I look!
12.  I call these blingy butt jeans and honestly I don’t even care if they have bling on the butt, but I want to buy a pair of jeans that aren’t “mom jeans” that I bought at Sam’s Club. 
13. Let’s just say the last time I wore a belt was when those braided belts were popular.
14.  Not having to worry about hiding my muffin top would be great, I would even tuck my shirt in!
15.  My arms have always been my weakest-most-hated part of my body. Sick of having lunch lady arms.  Would love to be able to rock a tank-top!
16. I bought an outfit to workout in that looks similar to this. Tried it on and laughed my ass off, because who needs a goal to be able to wear cute workout clothes? ME!!!
17. I am tired of letting food control me and stop me from doing things that I want to do or going places I want to go. I want to eat to live and not constantly live in regret for things that I put in my body. You would think this would be easy and it might be for you, but for me it is a REAL struggle that I deal with every second of the day. 

I am going to put this baby up on my bathroom mirror. Maybe I will just make copies and put it everywhere. Do you have one? I would love to see it.